the testimony of shelbey rommell

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Testimony of shelbey rommell

testimony

some of you know about me. most. you know, what's happened in my life. I'm telling you now, so i can maybe complete my mission. the reason why i am here and they out come of what's happened. i want to change you, show you even though your world may have crashed down, there's someone who will always be there to catch you. His names God, Aba, Lord. My Creator who formed you and me, put us on this earth so that we may praise his name. after everything my faith grew small. i couldn't understand if there was a God, why would he take so much away, what was his purpose in doing that? but then i had to learn the concept of "everything happens for a reason." And that reason exactly is You. iv excepted what has happened and have forgiven the people i needed to forgive.
when i was 7 my mother go very sick. she was in the hospital for months. i only got to see her once. she didn't look so good. i guess as a 7 year old, it seemed my mother faded there. she disappeared from my life. God took her slowly. she died April 27, 1999. i still remember my brother getting out of my fathers truck and saying "mom died today." i didn't believe it.. my brother and my mother were very close. my father and my brothers relationship wasn't anything like i had with both of my parents. my dad was abusive to my mother, and my brother doesn't tell many but he was to him too. i guess i was the little girl, id have to admit i was adored by my dad.
well time passed, my brother and i moved in with my aunt. Back and forth between my aunts fro a while but we kind of settled into my aunt connies. from there me and colbey became close to our relatives on my moms side of the family. The Mays, there really my heroes. they've been here for us since i cant tell you when, i guess since i was born? ha. i grew up in my little childhood normal. i was a regular kid, i forgot mom died for a while. dad would stop by every night, he'd get us on weekends and we became his life, he became a smoker for some reason, my mom would sometimes smoke cigarettes, she said it relived stress. dad was different, now that i look at it from here, he changed and saw the most important thing in his life was his children. my brother and him became closer and dad wasn't as mean anymore. To me my dad was Perfect, he treated my like a princess. He'd carry me everywhere, if i wanted a toy or anything at all, he'd get it for me. the one thing i remember most about him was his hands, he'd always try to hold mine, and I hardly ever would. I was such a hard headed stupid kid. weren't we all. Well. The Mays decided to move to Africa for four years to do mission work. I was sad. They were my best friends, Xan, Han, and Austin. We would always play and be together.
Dad always had so many girl friends, he was a pimp? As he thought haha. He was nice looking ;] id have to admit. It was hard to see him get girls bring them around for a while then they'd leave too, it was hard fro me to understand how you can be with someone for a while and simply just let them go. Now I understand, because I have trouble with that.
Aunt Connie her husband, Uncle Davis, Me, and Colbey packed our bags and we were headed off to Africa for a month, or something like that, to visit the Mays. The plane ride was quite long. When we got there it was so weird and different, but amazing. So pitiful at times. The people there are so poor, and we say "god I want new cloths." or "I need new rainbows mine are old and worn." I mean I still do it. But people there, they find paper bags and make them into balls to play for days months how ever long the bag will last, all because they cant afford a BALL. We had a blast it was such an adventure. When we returned I learned dad had a new girl friend. Palau. Ug I already didn't like her the day I saw her. I learned as he was dating her, she was doing drugs. Shed take money from my dad, to buy them I believed. I never could see why she did them, they were dumb and make her hurt. My dad felt bad for her, I could tell and at times I did too. They'd break up sometimes. But then the next weekend shed move back into our trailer dad bought. Me and my brother stayed at it some times. He was forgiving. And accepting. My Dad was one Great guy, he had changed an incredible amount since mom died. He used to drink and go on rages, and have big anger issues, but then he totally changed. like I said earlier.
One Sunday coming home from church my aunt got a phone call, she began to say "Eddie put down the gun, don't do that, you have kids." right at that second my heart began to hurt and I couldn't feel myself. I didn't know if I was breathing or not. I began to cry and scream ,let me hold the phone, please. I begged. Finally I got the phone. He didn't say much. "dad please " I said over and over again. "I love you, please don't do that" thankfully, he put it down after a few minutes.
My Dad would take me and Colbey on his boat, put putting, jungle rapids, myrtle beach we would go every year to the Patricia grand. He was amazing at winning jack pot, he said he had luck. He always smelled so good. And looked nice. He was so cool to me.
He was the perfect dad. until March 9th 2002. I was woken up and my friend who had spent the night was told her mother was on the way to get her. My aunt wouldn't tell us what was wrong. My friend [Emily hill] we dramatically guessing what could of possibly had happened. Her brother maybe was kidnapped, we laughed at 5 in the morning at the fact that we were actually saying something horrible had happen. My aunt said we were being silly.
She left and my brother was woken up. They told us to sit down in the den. My aunt star came in and bent down at my brother "woo is this a party?" more family came through the door and sat around us. "this morning your dad shot himself."
I was blank. It wasn't true. I didn't believe it. Everything was fine. I just saw him last night, he kissed me good night. Emily and I talked about him the night before about how he would take her on the boat and stuff. I didn't want to her the crying of the family, my brother instantly began to cry. I got up and ran to Colbey's room and laid in his bed. I couldn't move. I didn't want to I wanted everything to disappear. My family came and got me up and we all talked and honestly the next year is a blur. Reality hit me about a year later. I hated who I was everything about me. I Cried over my dad almost every night. Id write to him. Pray to God and ask "why?"
Another blur years. I don't really remember everything just that I was very depressed and my heart was searching for something someone.
9th grade came along and I got wrapped up in the wrong friends and the wrong boyfriend. I didn't things I cant take back and I regrete it, one day I opened my eyes and remembered everything my dads grilfriend did and how I didn't like her for it. I had took my moms past and fell in her holes I repeated her mistakes and took on bad habits my dad had. Then I came down to reality and realized the only time in my life I had every been happy is when Id run to God and pray to him, give myself to him. So around January I decided I needed God and I needed to sick with him. There had been times in the past where I said "im different now" I said I changed but on the inside I was the same. I wasn't ready to give up my anger towards my dad, and God. I was mad. And I had to forgive my dad for leaving me. I had to forgive myself for hurting who I was out to be. I hurt my family and people around me.

Now the out come of my decision, i can honestly tell all of you, i Am a happy person. i still make mistakes, but God forgives me when i do. i have made wonderful friends, who stick by my side, like donna dunn. shes been with me since my dad died, my brother is my bestfriend and would have it no other way i wouldnt be here if God didnt give me him. i have a great boyfriend right now also, hes my bestfriend. i trust myself with him to make good choices and to help him come closer to God.

I didn't not tell you this to make you feel bad, or feel better about myself, I told you this because I want to change you through What God has gave me, salvation, and he made me to tell you my Story. And to tell you, He will hold you, no matter what you've done or have said. He loves you no matter what. Even if you turn him down. He will still be knocking. Let him in.
God saved my life.


-Romans 3:23 fro all have sinned; all fall short of God's glorious standards.
(that's saying were al sinners, we all make mistakes)

-Romans 5:8 but God showed us his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinning.
(this is the payment Jesus paid for you and I. he endured much more pain than any of us. All because he loved and loves us.)

-Romans 6:23 for the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.
(you except Jesus, and you will spend eternity with him. This is his gift to us. All you have to do is ask him in your heart, and you'll be free.)

the last thing i need to tell you is that, inable to believe in Godm you must have Faith. God is someone you have to believe is there, you may not be able to see him. but you can feel him. he can talk to you through others, dreams, anything. he will put people in your life for you to help or to help you.
Faith is a priority.

Jesus set me free, and everything that happened to me, all the pain , all the loses, everything. My brother and I smile today because Jesus Christ came in our lives, will be rewarded one day, and you can be too.
Questions?

Thank you for reading.

-Shelbey Rommell

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